A letter from a grandson on a mission.

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Dear Family, 

     When Dad first told me that Mommy Ning passed away, I couldn't take it in. I didn't know what to feel or what to react. I wanted to wake up immediately from this bad dream. I knelt and prayed to Heavenly Father and poured out my heart unto him. 

    When our Mission President delievered the news to me, and confirmed that it wasn't a dream. I calmly nodded as he extended his condolence.

Normally, I would firstly make corny jokes... then cry... then, breakdown. But this time, though its really sad, I was strongly comforted that I felt peace. Before, I didn't really understand the plan of salvation that God prepared for us. Now as a missionary my wisdon of it has greatly grown and undertood it. 

Death is part of God's plan to have Eternal Life. I feel happy for Mommy Ning.

She's going to be fine there. She's going to have a perfect health. Gonna be with Grandpa whom I never met and she can now watch all over us, specially her grandchildren whom she loves greatly.

Mommy Ning and I never really had moments together that I could remember. Except when I was really young and sickly maybe. 

We only talked through email. Even so, I love her so much. When I had trouble adjusting to my needs when I was just new o being a missionary, she was there to help me. 

Tho I wasn't really able to spend time with her, I'm very happy to have her as my grandma. 

If I am going to regret something, it's going to be her birthday parties that I was never in. I have always wanted to go. To be with her and my cousins. To know her more & to get closer to her. And for some reason, Im always not able to go.

    Whenever I see pictures of her along with her grandchildren I get jealous. Yes, I'm supposed to be there. What's really heavy is when she told me "Be there, it might be my last birthday."

Alright enough drama, Mommy Ning wouldn't want me to be sad. I know she loves me & that she is proud of me. I pray for everyone's heart to be comforted & that all may be strong in might, mind and strength.

I know that heavenly father & Jesus Christ lives. I know that someday we will all be together again, with Mommy Ning. 

In Jesus Christ's name, Amen. 

ELDER CHAD GILBERT SINSUAN MILALLOS

PHILIPPINES BAGUIO MISSION